I haven't posted in a while because we've been happy. Been playing Rift. Yes, we've had our annoyances every few days, but nothing to write about. Over all, pretty happy. Until a few days ago. A bunch of stuff happened... Here is the SHORT version
In one of my first posts & told you that X & I are going to move back to where he's from. Well, since we've been happy I asked dad for some help b/c we didn't want to separate for the 3 months that we'd have to b/c of my lease. We decided to try to bail on the lease & see what happens. He said yes. Then a few days later, he changed his mind b/c he doesn't like how X "doesn't want to work". He called X a fat, lazy bastard that doesn't want to work." X now can't stand my dad. Not that I can blame him. If X's mom said the same thing to me & X is ok with me not working at the moment... I'd get pissed off too. X has a pretty good work ethic... or so i think. i'm not 100% sure b/c when he first got here I promised him he could take 2-3 months off work to go through withdrawls. It's a bitch to have to work & go through withdrawls when quitting cold turkey. Anyway, so, now we're back to the origional thing of him moving back w/o me & I follow in October when my lease is up. So, this started the drama again over the last few days. Since then... I've wondered if our relationship will survive. Here are some of the annoyances that have gotten under my skin lately:
He's a fucking baby sometimes. Pout all damn day over the game (Rift). He lost a chest piece that he couldn't even wear yet (toon too low lvl) to a guildie & that pissed him off to the point that he bitched & griped for so long.... it got to the point I looked at him & wondered WTF I saw in him.
earlier this week he spent $60 on pills. i was ok with it b/c we were getting the help from dad.... then the next day dad said nope. so, whatever... i agreed when we had the extra money. then the next day he spent $15 on more. i was ok with that b/c i was getting us alcohol. i much prefer him on pills than whiskey. so, i was ok with that. He hadn't gone to work with me because we were supposed to move together for those few days. Then after dad pulled the rug out from under us, I told him I wanted him to come with me again until he moved. He said he needed pills to stay up so he could turn around. I asked why he didn't just take some benadryl & sleep more so he'd be up that night. Didn't want to. Of course... we have to indulge the vice. -_- I told him we spent $75 already this week on them. I didn't want to spend any more money on that b/c we have a bus or plane ticket to buy & we're pretty broke. He said, "well, then I won't be going with you. I'll just stay on 1st shift. It's better anyway b/c when i get to work up there I'll be on 1st shift anyway. We'll have the phone." Do you know how pissed off I was??? Well, I am really trying to keep in mind all the stress & bullshit we have going on. Breathe ... Just Breathe.... So, becuase I'm going to miss him I agreed. I told him he could have $20. With the $5 he had he could get enough. Well, the guy raised the price of the pills. With his tolerance $25 wasn't enough. I was annoyed. I should have just said nevermind & let him stay home. But, b/c I wanted him with me I gave him $40. So, he had $45 to spend on pills. What does he do???? He gets them today. Takes HALF OF THEM today... now, he has 4 left & that isn't enough to keep him up all night w/o being exhausted b/c of how he slept last night.
REALLY????? R E A L L Y?!?!?!?!?!?!?! WTF?!?!?!?!?!
For the first time, I actually thought "I don't think we're going to make it." Which made me pretty sad. I wondered if I should even move. If I should just cut my losses after he moves away. I have to go with him b/c I can't stay here. I can't live near my dad & step-mom. They both drive me crazy. I don't know where else I'd go but with X b/c of my current situation (no education, no real life skills as far as jobs go....). So, I've decided to move where he will be. I will get my ass in a community college for a year course in something that will allow me to make better money that I'm making now. The difference is... I'm going to put my foot down there. We will be away from all the bullshit that's been making our lives hell. If I'm unhappy he'd better straighten up. If he doesn't.... I won't stay.